Frustration sets in...or it never left

I am very territorial at work. In some respects I think it is valid but it's not exactly healthy. Trust should be earned, not expected especially in certain environments. I feel like people don't get me. I don't think that I am that complicated of a person, maybe oversensitive at times but not complex. This is just the way I am & it makes me sympathetic and empathetic to people. Sometimes I think my boss just thinks that it makes me pathetic. She makes me feel bad a lot. Is it me or is it her? Probably a little from column A, a little from column B.
I need more than a vacation. I'm glad that I am getting away to a cabin in Maine soon but a weekend trip is not long enough. I need money to make that happen. I am trying real hard not to be negative but it's a challenge-I have always been quite the little pessimist. Maybe it's easier to feel sorry for myself & play the martyr but how far has that gotten me? We all know the answer to that.
My ex's twin bro just got married & a bunch of people posted pics on facebook/myspace. It made me feel really nostalgic & quite sad. It's been so long since I was a part of that world. If I hadn't left CT, would I have been there? And many other questions I don't even want to consider came to mind as well. Hmmmmmm